Risky business and a very complicated pregnancy.

It's an extremely risky proposition: hoping to bring home a baby from a 3rd world county, half-way around the world that has a new and very unstable government, and a brand-new adoption program. Add to that a political crisis with daily protests, frequent blockades, governmental shutdowns and a capitol city that runs on 4 hours of electricity a day.

I'm not so arrogant as to say I have a strong grasp, or even a weak grasp of the political situation in Nepal. Quite the opposite...I hardly feel capable to even give an overview to those of you following our process. Suffice to say, the political situation in Nepal is very tenious and while we're told the adoption process is continuing, we have not seen or heard of progress in weeks.

When I think of all the Nepalese people have gone through and are going through with civil wars and governmental change, I can't help but feel selfish for wanting them to "fix" everything so we can have our baby. But part of it is also compassion I feel for the orphans who are helping pay the price for the political instability. While the rulers of the country, and those who want to rule the country, battle - the babies and children without families grow up in orphanages, instead of loving homes.

Many have asked us "Why don't you just go to another country?", "Why don't you just adopt domestically?", "Why don't you just have a biological child?". (Such personal questions, I sometimes flinch.) While I can't explain it, my sense is that this is our path. And I would no sooner walk away from Nepal now than I would walk away from a pregnancy that just wasn't going the way we expected.

Namaste for now.