Protection

I've been struggling with things to write about lately.  I mean, one can only write "We haven't heard anything", "We have no idea what's happening" and "I don't have a lot of patience" so many times.

Most of the bloggers adopting from Nepal have either made their blogs private, or just plain quit posting. We've heard that the authorities in Nepal are reading our blogs, but we've never had anything to hide. We respect the people, the culture and the religions of Nepal enormously. (And I believe this blog reflects that.) Actually, it's those exact things that are the reasons we're hoping to bring a child from Nepal home.

But after this long rollercoaster ride - I wonder if our journey with Nepal is close to ending. Holding on to hope, day after day, and year after year takes a lot of energy. I'd never want to take our dossier out of Nepal, but I think I need to let this go for a while...

Our baby will find us. I can hold onto that. But I'm not sure I can hold onto where our baby will come from for now. From where I stand, it's hard to tell whether the door is opening, or closing.

Namaste

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So many questions, so few answers! And I'm not getting patience fast enough.


Namaste

The stakes are higher...

We have some good friends who have returned from Nepal with their child. And some other good friends are preparing to travel to Nepal to meet and bring home their child.

This is all to say that now, the stakes are higher. Whereas last year, international adoption was all more of a "concept", now the idea of bringing home a child from Nepal seems much more real and tangible.

These days, I waver back and forth between sheer excitement, and sheer panic. (Thankfully, my husband does his best to keep me grounded - not an easy task.)

So... the mantra continues to be "our baby will find us." And in the meantime, we keep fresh flowers on the shrine, celebrate with our friends, and keep the faith.

Namaste

1 year, 5 months and 2 days.

That's how long we've been working towards starting a family with hopes of a child from Nepal. We've learned a lot on this journey. We've met some fantastic new friends. We've seen the support and love from both family and strangers. We've had ups - and we've had downs. 

We're not sure if we're any closer to our child. But - as my husband (who has more faith than me) reminds me: our child will find us... and we will find our child.

So, another day, another prayer for our child, for our friends in the process, for those we don't know in the process, and for the orphans in Nepal - and everywhere. So many children who want families - so many families-to-be who want those children. If only we could connect them all.

Namaste