1 year, 5 months and 2 days.

That's how long we've been working towards starting a family with hopes of a child from Nepal. We've learned a lot on this journey. We've met some fantastic new friends. We've seen the support and love from both family and strangers. We've had ups - and we've had downs. 

We're not sure if we're any closer to our child. But - as my husband (who has more faith than me) reminds me: our child will find us... and we will find our child.

So, another day, another prayer for our child, for our friends in the process, for those we don't know in the process, and for the orphans in Nepal - and everywhere. So many children who want families - so many families-to-be who want those children. If only we could connect them all.

Namaste

Even more uncertainty.

Nepal's Prime Minister is set to step down.. and what was a very tenuous situation for hopeful adoptive parents becomes even more so.

We wish the people of Nepal peace, and we pray that the orphans will find forever families, soon.

Namaste.

A glimpse into my head at any given moment...

I wonder if we'll get a match soon?
Will our baby be a boy or girl?
How are our friends in Nepal doing?
How is the weather in Nepal?
What are we having for dinner?
What is our baby's name?
How old is our baby?
Should I return those cute sandals that don't quite fit?
(Hmmm. They'll stretch.)
How is the matching process actually working?
Is a batch of matches going out next week?
Next month?
Where are we in the order?
Is there an order?
Doesn't seem to be.
Will we be able to use miles when we travel?
I hope we can upgrade!
Settle down, we probably can't.
(Hmm. Must find out if Delta miles transfer to United).
Will we be able to connect in Bangkok with the riots?
Will we be in Nepal during Monsoon season?
(If so - can I get some of those cute Wellies that there's no reason to have in Colorado?)
Hmmm. I really wonder what our baby's name is?
Oh, then what will the middle name be?!
What should I wear to work tomorrow?
Will our baby smile or cry when he/she sees us?
I wonder what our friends in Nepal are doing right... now.
Is our new garden going to give us lots of veggies?
Or will the deer and foxes get fat?
Will our baby be a boy or a girl?
What toys will we take for our baby?
What toys will we take for the other children?
Are these jeans tighter or looser than they were last time I wore them?
Where will we be when we get "the call"?
Which immunization is next?
Sigh...

I wonder if we'll get a match soon?
{Repeat...}

Namaste.

Movement!

Good news! We hear that there is movement in the Nepal program again!  Some families who had gotten matches a few months ago have just received travel approvals. This means they can now go to Nepal to meet and bring home their children! We wish them speedy and safe travels.

We wish the people of Nepal a break from the civil unrest.

And now we wait anxiously for the next set of matches...

Namaste

Uncertainty would be an understatement.

There is massive political unrest in Kathmandu, the likes of which we can't even imagine in this country. Right now, most of the families who are in-country to pick up their children are not even able to leave their hotels. The more than 120,000 protestors have completely shut down the city.

I have always kept this blog positive and hopeful. After a very tumultuous year, this might be the most uncertain and scary time we've experienced. It is with great hesitancy that I even look at news from Nepal, as it hurts my heart. Yet, our future will be determined by these events so far away, so out of our control and happening imminently.

Our thoughts are with the people of Nepal, the families in Kathmandu and the children who are still waiting to meet their forever families. Including what might be our child.

Namaste.

This time last year.

I just went back and read through our blog from April of last year. Seems at this time last year we were excitedly finishing the final bits of paperwork, and then sending our Dossier to Nepal. (I remember tracking it on Fed Ex online every hour.)

It's hard to believe we've been waiting for "the call" for a year now. We'll continue to wait, our hearts ebbing and flowing with every tidbit of news that comes from Nepal. 

We have a shrine in the baby's room, on which we're keeping fresh flowers now that it's spring. 
Namaste.

Blessings to all.

It seems things are moving again with the Nepal Adoption program!

We are very happy for those we know who have received matches with children, or travel approvals.

We hope, we meditate, we wish, we send positive thoughts and we pray with all that we are, that we will someday soon meet our child.

Namaste